For you I Will

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For most of my facebook followers, they would have already read this story. However, I decided to post it on my personal blog as well. Please read this beautiful story about my son below Xo

On Canada Day I took my son to see fireworks, As we drove back home the song “For you I will” by Monica came on the radio. I said to him “Day, that’s my song dedicated to you!” As I continued to drive I hummed the song as David sat in the back seat quietly.  Once I came to a stop light,  I turned around to check on him and to my surprise  there were tears on his face and he smiled gently at me. I said :papa whats wrong?” And he said “I’m crying tears of happiness mommy” – I had instant tears.

A moment with my Father

I have kept a private journal since I was in the seventh grade, and I do my best to record everything that has a significant impact on my life. From time to time I look back into the journal I kept during my father’s passing. I never seem to find an entry which elaborates on my thoughts during one of the most significant times of my life.

Anyhow, a few weeks ago I had to do some re-organizing in my home because we were getting new furniture. After emptying out the entertainment center I found a bag with a whole bunch of note books (I am a note book junkie). One of those books included a book I kept during my pregnancy – it consisted of my doctor appointments, baby shower details, important numbers and just about everything a pregnant woman needs to stay on track. Now, at the back of that book I found journal entries. Amongst those were entries I found entries I had wrote regarding my father passing away and times I had visited him in the hospital. The moment felt right to find these entries even though it became emotional. It was so emotional that I had to leave the room before my mother could see the tears falling from my eyes.

The entries had discussed my times visiting my dad just before he passed away, and it also discussed the moment I told my father I was expecting my son. See, for a majority of my pregnancy I didn’t tell my father I was pregnant. I didn’t tell him for a few reasons. One, because I was at a pinnacle moment of my life – I was his first child to attend University and I knew it meant a whole lot to him. Second, when I found out I was pregnant I asked my father “Daddy I have a friend who is pregnant and she is still studying…what do you think she should do?”
His reply “Well she’s stupid!” Yeah I had a bunch of blank stares too. Therefore I decided to withhold telling my father I was expecting.

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Remembering Dr Maya Angelou

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Today I woke up at 6:30 am and indulged into well needed meditation. See, the last few days have been a bit stressful – I have been getting over an illness and my motivation was not where it normally is. Not only did I meditate but I also recounted my affirmation over and over and over again just to build mind back to where it needs to be.

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Don’t Sweat the Small Stuff

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Don’t Sweat the Small Stuff by Richard Carlson is a book which helped to change my entire outlook on life. Once upon a time, I made every little thing bother my heart and soul. I mean, over thinking, being nit-picky … Continue reading

#30DAYS2SEXY

 

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For the last few months I have made it part of my lifestyle to hit the gym and get my daily dose of working out (Yayy me). I must say I am very proud of that because its no longer on my ‘to do list’ its just a part of my day. However, here is what I am not too thrilled about *drumroll* my habit of getting comfortable when I see changes! Yes I DO THAT and its a habit I am doing my absolute best to kick.

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Glowing By Choice

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The way life is treating you, has a way of showing in your everyday glow. Just before turning 28 I made a vow to myself to do more, enjoy more and try my best to worry less. So basically, to live life that much more and just enjoy things while it lasts.

The very essence of life is to live in the moment, work towards your hearts desires, and feel gratified for being here. A few nights ago, my son and I were looking through a box of old photos – some of these photos were dated back since I was in high school while others were of his infant days. I remember seeing my son excitedly looking thru his baby photos – some showed him playing in tissue paper, others had his smiling face with his food plastered over his adorable face, while other photos showed loved ones holding him and enjoying his presence. As he looked through these images he said

“I am happy to be here and have had all these great memories”.

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10 ways to get back up After life has knocked you down!

 

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Even the smoothest roads have a bit of bumps and that is expected because it’s all part of this beautiful thing we call life. Things have been a blessing lately but I recently found myself in a situation, which had me feeling like part of my world was ending – but it was more of a blessing in disguise.

The truth is, I have so much to be thankful for at this moment, and despite my bump in the road it was very necessary to pull up my big girl socks and deal with my S*&% like a big girl. Here are 10 points that helps to get me back into my fabulous mindset. I Hope this helps you as much as it helps me. Xo

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10 ways to get back up when you feel life has knocked you down!

Even the smoothest roads have a bit of bumps and that is expected because it’s all part of this beautiful thing we call life. Things have been a blessing lately but I recently found myself in a situation, which had me feeling like part of my world was ending – but it was more of a blessing in disguise.

The truth is, I have so much to be thankful for at this moment, and despite my bump in the road it was very necessary to pull up my big girl socks and deal with my S*&% like a big girl. Here are 10 points that helps to get me back into my fabulous mindset. I Hope this helps you as much as it helps me. Xo

1. Be honest with yourself and embrace your feelings.

The worst thing you can do to yourself is place your feelings aside – especially if you are hurt. The chances of your feelings re-surfacing and crashing are high. Don’t get me wrong, there are some issues that just need to be tossed to the waste side! However, even in those situations you should still admit your feelings to yourself.

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A Gift from 2013

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Are you ready for your Newer Year?  I pray you are ready for a year that belongs to you. If you believe it does then everything is already working in your favor.

In 2013 I had the opportunity to revamp my company, be a Miss Black beauty Canada contestant, travel a bit, lose a few pounds, and meet some truly amazing people. The best part is that most of it occurred organically with the help of good energy. Below are a few points that I took from my ‘notes of reflection’ for 3013 in hopes they will help you.  These points are simply highlights that helped me reach some of my highest potentials.

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